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Wednesday, August 7, 2024

Rationalizing Rejection


Some disheartening events.  One major betrayal, I think, or at best insensitivity by people who I expected to serve as my advocates.  My best work submitted and turned down.  What I thought was going to be outreach to my mind ended up being a pitch for a large bequest.  My own synagogue registers as less welcoming than six months ago.  No real damage from any of this.  In fact, some may have acted in my interest in an unappreciated way, helping me dodge a very big bullet in my later years, though in a manner that would have greatly impeded me professionally at mid-career.  With these, and more, I understand my role is to serve as a tool for the organizations that had not treated me the way I had anticipated.  I get it.  No inclination on my part to seek reprisal other than eliminating some places from the bequest section of my will.

In my younger, working years, I might have been more miffed by these events.  Now, in my senior years, financially secure, in reasonable health, with a stable supportive family, I am not dependent on the things I do being well-received, or even being treated the way I hoped I might have done better were somebody seeking my acceptance.  What is more difficult, though, is finding replacement acceptance.  Unlike a former POTUS who declares anyone who challenges him to be defective, I already know that the organizations these disappointing encounters represent are not inferior.  They just did not represent my aspirations well, nor apparently did those initiatives on my part mesh with theirs.  

I value my independence.  I could use these recent rebuffs as justification to turn inward, to never do anything bold to avoid rejection.  Even at an advanced age with ample personal resources, isolation as a surrogate for protection, does not appear an attractive path.  

A more difficult branch point would be one posed by Dear Therapist of The Atlantic.  Those submitting her summaries of their problems ask her how to get thems who done them wrong to change.  Her advice invariably follow a genre that you have to change.  The other option, that she rarely takes, would be to find different people accepting of who you already are.  I think that's a better way for me to proceed.

Wednesday, March 31, 2021

Maybe Give Florida Another Go


One full year has elapsed since Covid-19 altered our customary activities.  Had I not retired when I did, I would have functioned amid the medical fray, finding myself desperately in need of a vacation but limited to mostly a staycation, assuming they allowed their docs some periodic respite.  Even soldiers in modern warfare have some R&R provisions.  As a forced indoor cat, I probably did better than most.  My car counts as isolation, so a daily drive usually to nowhere became the norm.  For a while I went to stores but soon lost interest in being a consumer of anything other than food.  I never liked take-out, preferring a menu with the rituals of a waitress.  There not being many options for this, it became a special occasion, one whose absence became less bothersome as the months proceeded.  I had some destinations.  State Parks allowed fishing.  Two state beaches got visits without the deviants among us expressing their autonomy by endangering the public, as I saw in news reports from elsewhere.  I even ventured onto an airplane for my son's wedding, a much muted venture limited to puttering around my former campus and neighborhoods in St. Louis, eating outdoors twice, but not having the hotel amenities that add to previous short trips.  I also made three modest day trips, one to a Philadelphia's Italian Market, another to Ladew Topiary Gardens with grounds open but mansion closed, and another to a more distant state park while zipping briefly for coffee or pizza in the small town America that barely survives the nearby malls.  I even had a trip planned to the Everglades, but cancelled as the toll of Covid-19 peaked enough to make travel to the that part of Florida beyond prudent risk.  Now we have immunization, or will soon.  We also have places that depend on visitors trying to have their Second Act. Each day an airline or two tries to entice customers with air fares that undercut any other means of traversing that distance.  And Atlantic Florida being overbuilt, overscheduled by competing airlines, and without any need to transport cruise ship passengers, again emerges as an economical destination, though as safety improves, bargains have become more restrictive.

It's a place I never particularly sought out beyond making a trek to Disney World with the kids, something that has become largely obligatory one time, perhaps like the Hajj, for American parents.  My father lived in Boynton Beach for his final two decades, so a few trips worthy of Kavod Av got incorporated, though never truly what I think of as a personal vacation with that required element of escape for fun.  And I've been there in my professional capacity as a physician for two conferences.  It's not really the enticing destination where I would go to let my hair down let alone ride out my closing years like my father and some childhood friends have done, nor seek my adult destiny there, a venture taken by many friends as young adults.  Nobody who has done that seems to move on.  I found it a place where people like being catered to or having their entitlements reinforced, something that almost jeopardizes my pride of independence with the accomplishment that comes from doing as much as I can myself, mostly for myself.  

But a bargain is a bargain.  I have to look at the flights and places to stay.  What would I do if I were there for five days or so, or whatever length of stay qualifies for a discounted flight home?  The Everglades, which I have seen from the window of a small plane on a business related shuttle from Miami to Tampa, should be experienced at ground level.  I have a few friends there though with Covid still active, I don't know how receptive people are to guests.  When FB friends venture there and post photos, they invariably include gatherings of friends maintained over decades, and in far larger numbers, and likely in closeness, than my less gregarious nature has maintained.  There are beaches, but in the likely travel month of June we have wonderful beaches in driving distance. Hotels have outdoor pools there.  We have them indoors, though the outdoor ones are more likely to avoid suspension of activity by the regional health departments.  For parts of the area, there is a stronger Jewish presence than I have at home.  It would be pleasant to dine at a Kosher restaurant on some delicacy not readily duplicated in my own kitchen.  

Whatever is there that I might do, I think the strongest incentive remains being someplace other than here which has taken its toll.  My drive to nowhere to get me out of the house most days can be a drive to somewhere someplace else.  Check the airfares.  Check the calendars.  See who might be around.  But I'm ready for a more distant destination.

Friday, July 5, 2019

Machshava for Independence Day



Moshe Taragin: Democracy and its Demons :Thoughts Upon Democracy and Religion




Rather interesting article in anticipation of American Independence Day written by an American expatriate who teaches in Israel, which in some ways is more of an idealized democracy than America and in other ways less so. While I may be the prototype of a democracy enthusiasts, he sees some areas that leave room for improvement.

1.Rampant Individualism, Perhaps the greatest challenge which democracy poses is the emphasis upon the individual and his liberties.

While individualism prevails and has been the one force that unleashed talent, I do not think historically it was limited to democracy as an ideology. Europeans were taking it upon themselves to explore the world or science during even the most repressive environments. People who excelled in the yeshivot were rewarded for their individual achievements. Democracy did not create this but it expanded the number of participants and the talents they brought to the table.

Americans, for all the focus on individual rights, did not neglect the collective needs, sometimes good, sometimes not. Slavery for all its evils, had an economic benefit to those not enslaved. We have investment in railroads, land grant colleges, mandated land for public schools, an interstate highway system, and the Homestead Act. We mobilize effective armies, and protect assembly rights so that people can band together to pool overlapping needs. It's not all Hillel's "if I am only for myself what am I?"

2. A Life of Rights and a Life of Duty

Again, not unique to democracy. Since this comes from Israel, this American's view of negotiation typically has the Islamic side proposing gimmees with a paucity of concessions. That's not democracy and it's not duty. "We demand ours now" is that Life of Rights, though they might argue that recovering that land is their duty.

In America we protect our rights but we also have obligations, usually imposed by law. It is my right to drive on the highways but my duty to do this safely. We had a military draft for 100 years.

We accept a duty to be non-discriminatory as our laws require. Some of us go beyond that, expanding our need to protect others. While charity is regarded as voluntary, Americans in general and Jewish Americans in particular have show ourselves mostly generous.

3. The Tyranny of Moral Relativism

This may be the Achilles Heel of democracy as we know it. Live and let live has its historical tensions, again not unique to democracy. We had Crusades and we had institutional anti-semitism in the name of absolute morality assessments in the name of the one true religion long before there were elected governments. In America we had a centuries long approach to slavery that said states could decide on their own, who am I in Massachusetts to dictate the reality in Alabama? We have that now in our abortion debates. Elective pregnancy termination is widely accepted in parts of Asia and in Canada. These people who live among us are not evil. Why not accept their belief while I adhere to mine? I observe kosher laws and shabbos which are commandments of God but have no reason to impose them on anyone else. I do not need to be armed, but maybe somebody else lives in more fear than me. I think the moose is a magnificent beast who should live the way nature intended and agree that meat should be farmed and ritually slaughtered. Others take pride in the ability to gather their own food made more certain with a rifle. All of these are moral relativism, appropriate to the political debates that we have. They are not tyranny. Absolutism creates tyranny.

Good article. Made me think about America on the Glorious 4th.

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